This blog almost turned into a man-bashing tirade. It would have been if I had written it last night like I started to. The short version: learned something new about what the ex was doing behind my back. The outcome: I drove around for a bit playing heavy metal really, really loud. I feel much better now, which is a very good thing. Why?
Because today is my birthday! I will not give the ex the focus of my attention today. I have a new playlist on my Myspace page with music that makes me smile. Plus some really cool graphics. Today is going to be a beautiful day. I’m listening to Walking On Sunshine by Katrina & The Waves. That is my theme for today.
I’ve already received several Happy Birthday’s, some nice smelly stuff from a girlfriend, and my brother bought me Chocolate. I did receive a message from a certain someone I was hoping to hear from. I’m still hoping for a voicemail ….
My birthday wish for this year involves a definition. I’ve mentioned parts of this definition in my previous blogs. What I want this year is a real man. A man who knows who he is and what he wants, where he’s been and where he plans on going. A man who understands as well as I do that nobody is perfect. A man who will work as hard as I will to maintain a healthy, passionate, honest relationship. A man who is willing to take a risk. A man who knows when to compromise and when to stand and fight. A man who can redefine romance. A man who knows when to just hold my hand and when to push me against the wall and kiss me breathless.
I know the fairy tale is not reality. I’m not looking for the fairy tale. I want to rewrite the fairy tale. I believe it is possible to find the love of your life, whether for the first time or the second or the third. All I ask is that he loves with all his heart, with everything he has. Don’t hold anything back, and I’ll return the favor. If you think this sounds like you, feel free to stroll through my door.
Today is my birthday and I’ve made my wish. It’s up to you to make my day.