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Who do you see when you look in the mirror? What do you say to that person when you see them? Is it something positive or something negative?
Next time you stand in front of the mirror, pay attention to what your inner dialogue is. They way we talk to ourselves is very important. Negative self-talk lowers your self-esteem. It can lead to a lot of bad things, stress eating, depression, destructive behavior, and generally just feeling like crap.
You also have to be honest with yourself when you look in the mirror. Are you wearing a mask? Do you show a mask to the world and then be someone else when you’re at home?
We all have a mask of some sort. It is vital to our mental well-being not to forget who we really are. You have to look behind the mask look at the real you. Even with problems and issues in everyday life, we are all perfect in our own way. You just have to be willing to look underneath and accept who you are.
I can usually tell when I’ve gone too long without meditating. I get irritable, moody. Little things irritate me more quickly than usual.
For me, meditating helps relieve stress, helps me focus, helps me deal with a lot of issues. It gives me a chance to concentrate on a particular issue, or on nothing at all. Meditating is a lot like praying. You close your eyes, ask for guidance and have a little faith.
I learned to meditate after the loss of my mother and grandmother to a car accident. It was the only thing that kept me sane. It helped me deal with the grief, the anger, and helped me see things I hadn’t seen before. I’ve meditated a good bit since the demise of my marriage. Probably not as much as I should have considering my mood of late. It’s safe to say I’m still grieving for what I thought I had.
I haven’t meditated much lately for several reasons. Even though each one would be valid, they still sound like excuses. I need to meditate so I can deal with the last of the baggage from the Ex. I haven’t let go completely. I’ve not let go because I don’t have the answer to a question. The issues on both sides cancel each other out but they still don’t answer that one question. I will probably never hear an answer to that question. And I have to learn to live with that. It’s just another piece of baggage that needs to be taken to the curb with the trash.
I know I can not take responsibility for the Ex’s actions. I did not make the choices that led me to my aunt’s doorstep a year ago. What I can own up to are the choices I’ve made since then.
I choose to live my life the way I want. I choose to let people get close or not. I choose to let the real me shine through. This is my life. I will have faith in myself to be strong enough to live it.