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There have been a few things bothering me of late. Nothing life threatening. Not even anything I have direct control over. But enough to cause some angst. So finally this morning I started writing it out.
I’ve written in a journal since I was in high school. Nothing new. Sometimes I forget how therapeutic it can be. Once I started putting all my anxieties on paper, they didn’t seem to be so overwhelming anymore. Most monsters are not what we think they are. Getting mine in black and white made them much smaller.
Like any situation that has pros and cons, write them out. The good, the bad, and the ugly. Find all the possibilities and put them on paper. Even if there is nothing you can do but sit there and look at it, the act of getting it out of your head will work wonders.
The longer I wrote this morning, the clearer everything became. I like when that happens. It means I have my head in the right place again. That’s when the fog lifts and my path opens up in front of me.
How many things can you think of that you wanted to try and never did? Do you remember why you didn’t? I can think of several things I never tried. My mother was really good at making me feel like I would never accomplish anything. Being taught to fear failure makes it hard to achieve. Setting your own obstacles in your path makes it difficult, also. You can’t prevent yourself from achieving the little goals and expect to reach the big ones. You’re setting yourself up to fail. And you can’t let other people convince you that you’re not good enough to reach the little goals or the big ones.
The trick is finding the fire inside of you that makes you want to achieve regardless to how many people say you can’t do it. The desire to do something or find something or be with someone has to be so strong that you feel you will die if you don’t reach that goal.
You have to ask yourself, “Am I strong enough to take that next step?” Are you willing to take a risk and step outside of your comfort zone? Are you ready to set aside your fear to reach for your destiny? How do you know if you don’t ask yourself the question? How do you know if you don’t take that first step, take that small risk? Small ones lead to big ones. You have to start somewhere.
There are several things I would like to do right now. Are they impossible? Hell, No! Are they impractical at the present time? Yes, Damn it! That doesn’t change the fact that I’m afraid of falling on my face. Nor does it change the fact that I want to stand on my own without fear.
What it means is that I will save and plan and calculate and work my ass off until I can do those things. Anyone can tell me I won’t achieve my goals. I am the only one who will stop me from achieving them.
Somewhere in my future, fear will become obsolete. I will push the debris out of my way, and run defiantly in the face of my opposition. I won’t fear what will happen if I fly there and meet him. I will fly there and see what happens in person.